Stayed in all day Friday, trying to get myself to work on this blasted paper. Having a hard time facing it. Just like I did with Memo #1 for my other class, for which I somehow got an A-. Thank God. Didn't get nearly as much done as I wanted on Friday, and I knew I was going shopping with Kelly Saturday afternoon, but I figured I'd have five solid hours between waking up and meeting her in Palermo Viejo around four... I figured...
There's a new girl in the program, Gaby. She's the baby of the program, having just finished college in May after starting school early as a kid. She's 21. GOODNESS. Her parents left on Friday night and I told her at lunch with Adam on Thursday that if she needed saving on Saturday, she should shout. I can't tell you how thankful I am that she called. I don't know why, but being able to get her out of the house on her Worst Day made me feel just a little bit better about having gone through mine completely alone.
Another day of trying to work on my paper...went through readings to pull out quotes today, and wrote my introduction and a very basic outline. 20 pages by Wednesday, and I currently have 1.5. I was about to head to bed when I got an email from Evan, an old friend from Carnegie Mellon who is actually one of only four people who subscribe to this blog. Came out of NOWHERE. Subject line: This one is for you... clearly. No body to the email, just this bit of adorableness. And I confess, a lolcat made me cry.

But MAN. Guys? A lolcat made me cry because it was a little reminder that I wasn't forgotten. I've talked to Sarah what? Three times in as many months? Haven't talked to Jen once? Or Zack, you subscribed, but I haven't heard a peep. This whole doing-it-on-my-own thing would be easier if I felt like I had a support system back home. It would be easier not to be phased by the people in my program not liking me if I knew I had friends back home.
I don't mean to get all chain email on you guys, but you really don't know how what you do affects people. This email took him fifteen seconds, and it MADE my weekend. So do me a favor, as a person who doesn't forget people, and make an effort to reach out to someone you haven't thought of in a while today. Feeling forgotten ain't the hottest, and kittens are really cute.
Guess that's all I have to say.
You are not forgotten, you little stinker...I am glad that you have found friends and familiar places to hang out and that you got a chance to visit with your folks. We all do truly miss you! I think about you a lot, but sometimes it is hard to get on the computer long enough to write. We are really looking forward to seeing you when you get back to visit. Until then, know we are thinking of you and lurking here and on Facebook to see what is going on. I should subcribe to your posts though, as I didn't know I should be doing that. Take care and get that paper done!!!! :0)
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Hey Melanie! Just found this blog thingy and was sure to subscribe right away! Looking forward to seeing what you've been up to the past few months...and I completely get what you're saying about the lolcat making you cry - it's not easy making a new life for yourself somewhere when the rest of your world seems to be going on without you. I survived the move to Toledo and I know you're much stronger than me, so keep persevering and, in time, things will start to seem not so bad after all and you'll feel more and more at home where you are. I'll be sure to keep updated now that I know where your blog is!
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